14 July 2007 (Sat)

Wanted to blog an entry on this day coz quite alot happened.

I woke up late and i had already told my boss i will be going to work late coz i have something to settle. The thought of going to work is dreadful. I wasn't suppose to work anyway coz i have already quitted that job and yet i m still working becuz he said that he really need help. No doubt, he is a nice boss so i decided to help him out but regretted at my decision.

I was feeling annoyed and pissed for no particular reason. My sis was nagging me to clear my table on one side and my bro is bugging me on the other. Mummy keeps asking me why i no work and i have to explained it to her. Was getting ready to go work still bobbing in my wake. Decided to wear contact lens and thought that i had wore it but realised one side slipped off and i couldnt find it. I am using monthly contacts and its not even half the month yet and thats what set me off. I started crying n ranting on my lost contact. My sis added her sacarsm and my mum denied me of crying. HEY in my 19 years of life, crying is the first thing i ever did when i came to this world and i had been well known for crying in the family. Crying is my way of pouring my emotion out and my frustration outlet and how can u reprimand me of my very action?????
Anyway i took a new piece of contacts out and because i breathe too hard it flew off my finger. WTH. Really felt like swearing and cursing the bloody G** up there. I think my brother had a shock of having her sis being in a hysterical mood. He helped me look for my contacts and in the end i found it residing on one of the many bottles of creams and moisturiser (MUM u shd tidy up the place).

I actually feels good after a heavy round of crying coz while i was crying i jus concentrate on my crying and not thinking about other things. Jus like my tears ( and mucus) , my anger and grouchiness seems to flow away with it. I cooled down as my tears vapourise and tada i am fine again. Jus let me cry and everything will be OK. I dun understand why guys feel helpless when they see a girl cry. Jus let them be, sit next to them and let her think it through. Pass her tissues if you have any and she will be very greatful, coz the mucus are sure irritating.

Than my sis gave me a lift to Orchard (where i am suppose to settle some stuffs). I was isolating myself away from her and her bf (my future bro-in-law) by listening to my fren's nano, blasting it through my ears, Daughtry. While we are on our way to some highway via Lentor (I nv remb the highyway names. PIE CTE BKE????), suddenly my sis shouted "SHIT OMG" and my bro-in-law "WHATDA HELL IS HE DOING? F*" Even though i am blasting i can hear their shouts. I looked in front and i saw a lorry instead of going straight it is moving towards the bustop at the side of the road. A bus had actually hit the edge of the lorry causing it to steer 90 degrees into the bustop. COOL. Jus like those shown in the movies but this time round without great sound effects except for the music from the nano (..'). Right infront of my eyes, right before our mini mitsubishi colt. We are at the grand VIP seat coz we are actually on the bus lane behind bus 855. But since 855 decided to overtake the lorry it actually wanted to cut into the other lane and hence knocking into the lorry. Anyway the lorry was around 10 plus meters? Its those cargo lorry . Even though it crashed into the bustop, it had occupied 2 lanes and the last lane, sadly by the bus (bus 855). Alright, now 3 lanes fully blocked. Our car cant move forward neither can me reverse. Whole Lentor is blocked. Some motorcyclists got damn desperate and decided to mount curb and bypass the bus (thats the advantage of motors but come to think of it if the lorry is a motorcycle :S) .

Alright, i was damn pissed off for losing my contact and now i witnessed an accident right before me and i was lucky that our car is not before the lorry coz unfortunately there is one and is quite badly "sandwiched" b/w the lorry and a volkwagen. We stepped out of the car and my sis called 999. I think this is the first time we ever called that no. coz my sis asked a stupid qn b4 she called" Police is 999 hor?" (..')

Than it took 20 mins for the TP to come and the amublance too. Than after 40 mins or so there is a 180 degrees reversal and all the cars have to go towards the kahtib direction. Have you ever seen 6 lanes of Lentor moving in the same direction ? No right. Its pretty cool AHA. I must priase the Tp for his job well done. Unfortunately, all the buses taking the Lentor road have to take the Thomson road instead. This sudden change of route must have left the commuters baffled. Then you can see 851-857 all turning into thomson road and those passengers up in AMK will never get to take their desired bus coz they will never go there until the accident is cleared. Poor thing.


This is my first time encountering this kinda accident. It doesnt happen often and i actually felt happy even though its not something good.My mood changed for the better and i felt guilty coz it seems that i am building my happiness upon other people's dismay....??? In the end i was unable to settle my stuff and i still have to go to work. SIGHZ.

I took some pics and videos regarding this incident. Will upload if possible in the future so stay tuned! :p

Had been slping at 3am for the past few days. Jus couldnt get to slp and last night 4am. Tonight 5am? :S

The nano is dead
and i am still wide awake
flipping in my bed
as the night goes late

(3 plus am)

An hour ago
to sleep was my goal
time passes slow
as the night wind blows
soon the world will glow
as the rays of the sun rise like an inverted bowl!

(4am)

I actually had the time to create these .............

Woke up at 8AM! Stupid eldest sis stepped on me to pick up her phone. Idiotic second sis blasting the hair dryer in my room. Menstrual cramp creeping up, not yet the climax. Over powering perfume from my 2 banker sisters choked me. My beauty sleep is gone. ORBAKA*

Haiz, hostel issue not yet resolved. B4 this issue we promised to watch harry potter together and now harry potter is showing!!! i mus resolve this quickly if not i duno how to face her. ABAKEDEHBRA! ( i 4got all the spells in harry potter's book. read it a long time ago. nv had a good memory of it, only a brief one) and we r frens again lalala~~~~

OK currently i am facing a life changing decision. I have already made the decision and hope for the best but still i think that this situation can be salvaged so feel free to advice.

Scenerio: Ever since i accpeted NTU as my future second home, i am again challenged by the question of whether to stay in a hostel. I was very keen AT FIRST, but through negative feedbacks about hostel life i was a bit taken aback. At the same time, i am looking for a roomate, one that i can survive with 1 semester. I don't expect that person to be someone i know v well but at least someone i know. I wanted that person to be comfortable with me and someone i m comfortable with.

Ever since my early acceptance of NTU, roomate candidate (note without S) also came along. :D At that time, i was only considering my sec sch fren(i dun have any other choice). Other factors which are affecting my decision revolves around finance, adaptibility, ability to concentrate for my work, able to still stay as who i am etc.. BUT most of all is whether i can stay peacefully with HER. No doubt we r good frens, ever since secondary school. Though we had been in different schools during jc but still we end up in the same uni. We are both glad that our secondary school clique stayed intact, all in NTU. She initiated the idea of staying together, i dint reject her offer but i dint clearly accept it also. After a few meet ups and conversation, i still dont feel confident staying with her. I dont dislike her but staying together make this whole friendship thing into another new perspective, to a higher level and usually there will only be 2 outcome : we become even better frens or we wont even become frens. I am afraid that the latter will come true hence i tried finding excuses to turn down and eventually put off the idea of staying in a hostel as long as our frenship remain as where it is.

2 years may not be long but its not short. I wont dare to say i really understand you neither do you. People do change, till now i still dont understand you. I dont even know the consequence of my decision on you. Will you be angry or will you accept it i have no idea. I have been through a soured friendship because of staying together. Jus like a couple, they have to get used to their living habits before they can marry. Some even divorce due to the difference in lifestyle. Such minor problems once accumulated escalates into a big problem and eventually a separation may deem fit as a solution. I do not want to spoil this friendship of ours i wan it to remain as it is.

OH YA people change. I dun mind my frens chaning, i wont force them to make changes either. I accept my friends as who they are. Nobody is perfect. I know my flaws too but people around me accepted me so me too accept others. I wont tell u straight in the face "hey i dun like that behaviour of u being bla bla bla" NO never will i make such comments. I smile and thats it.

I had made my decision at 11.30pm on June 2nd.

If you are angry, i wont make u read this entry but if u happen to i hope u understand. I had been v troubled for this past few days and felt like a person trying to hide her scandalous relationship during the ancient times. I maybe tagged "betrayal" / "unfaithful" but whatever it is, i hope u will understand. Seriously.