i've been struggling with my work n now my mum is bothering me with housework..wth

i think a lot of u wil hav the same exp as me..its sunday n u juz feel like slacking ard..sitting down to watch tv even if the show is terrible or juz lie on the bed even if u dun feel sleepy..but Mums juz cant stand the sight of u slacking..she juz keep on blabbering abt the loads of housework supposed to be done n even made a list of "what to do" 4 u that day..well even when i m studying she will juz call upon me to help her n yet she expect me to do well in sch..REDICULOUS

every morning i wake up n she starts listing them for me not once not twice but n times..ting ah vacuum the floor..ting ah keep ur bed..ting ah help me mop floor today the floor is so sticky..ting ah help me keep clothes..ting ah help me fold clothes..ting ah ting ah ting ah...................................
i m so scared of hearing my name now..

i m gging crazy!

i self proclaim that i had always been a v gd nice filial girl..most of the time i help her whenever i could..but sometimes when i m too tired i will juz excuse myself from all these extra work..today i tried excusing myself too from folding the pile of clothes because firstly, i m lousy at it..n whenever i fold a piece of clothing she will pick up tat same clothing n fold again so might as well let her fold all lo y go through the trouble of folding it twice 2ndly, both my sis r also at home why cant she ask them to do it 3rdly, i prmoise her i will vacuum the floor later..but she juz buay song n keep scolding n cursing us..n i m deeply hurt by that..stop calling me names MUM! i m ur daughter n i dun treat u like my maid okay..if u wanna be one i wont stop u but first of all maids dun complain n they nv ask their master to do hsework

i went to my room but the more i tot abt it the more angry i get..so eventually i went out n reason with her..but i realise its a big mistake..no pt reasoning with a person who is unreasonable............................. (..') well i personally feel that it a natural thing for mothers to do hsework although nobody or even god has set tat mindset but i believe every mum do housework..well at least some mum went out to work so as their child i think its reasonable for us to help them esp when they r so tired after work..BUT my mum is a HOUSEwife..arent she suppose to do HOUSEwork since she is staying at home most of the time? somemore she got the time in the whole world to do them so i c no pt in y she needs help..n the most terrible thing is she dun cook everyday..she dun cook on weekends she dun cook on some weekdays too like thurs or fri..maybe the most tiring thing is wasing clothes? but we got a huge washing machine n she could juz dump everything in..wel but some clothes have to be handwashed..n looking after my bro could be tiring too but most of the time she juz dun bother abt him unless my bro bothers her..besides that i cant think of anything which could make her tired

i know i shouldnt compare my mum with other mums..but its hard not to compare..sometimes i feel that she is not a responsible mum..ever since we r young she nv bring me to sch(except 4 nurery n k1 k2) she nv make lunch boxes..she nv make breakfast..she nv teach me homework..she nv pack my bag with me..she nv fetch me from sch..she nv ask me hows sch..she nv support me in competition b4...she nv c me compete b4..she nv say jia you to me when i gging to compete..she nv wakes me up for sch..n she nv did alot of things which other mtohers do

i think she is v v fortunate to have 3 daughters like us..we r so independent..we nv do stuff which worries her..we dint go astray..our academic is okay even though she dint contribute much besdies paying 4 the fees..we r understanding..most improtantly we love her..but she dun appreciate but take it 4 granted.

i shall be nice n forgive her since she is not educated n her childhood is filled with housework too..my grandmother was v strict with her when she is young..she dun have the chance to go to sch..among her siblings my mum is the first to come to society to work at the age of 16..she travels from malaysia to singapore to work all on her own n finally married my dad at the age of 19/20..however i dun agree that she should impose her mum's methodology(got such word?) on us..we r of totally different generation..i cant accept it n i tink its v wrong

however as i write this post my anger had alrdy dissipitated into nothingness..i tink i shall juz accept it n manage my time well b/w my sch work, track n last but not least the tons of housework which is so impt to my mum

went celebrating 4 julz bday with the gerz..had alot of fun..ate alot today..sushi ice cream pasta..all good food..oh no i tot i juz posted previously that i m fat..hm........

love hanging out with the gerz..without them sch will be so dreadful..if someone were to ask me hows my life(which alot asked) i would definitely say busy but m happy n contented...talked alot with them today..laughs n cries..its amazing how communication actually brings pple closer..small talks like this actually had brought the few of us closer together n made us understand more of each other(although the "small" talk lasted like 2-3hrs)..

i think life is juz like a drama which anything can happen..different pple have different experiences..they walk the path they had chosen but their choice may not be the same as another..so the difference in character also plays a part in the story of life...these stories had actually crafted different separate individuals like u n me..

anw thats juz my thoughts..u may or maynot agree with me..

and also i m tired..pang san liao nitez................

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argh!!! i think i m done for..had time trial today n it sucks..i wont buy myself any excuse or explanation..i m lousy n tats it..

almost cried out n the coach niao me even though he dun intend to..he is juz making a casual comment but it shatters my heart into pieces.........................plang..............n more plangs followed..

i really dont know whats happening..its not that i dint train hard..i put effort in it..coach says i m okay n doing well but y m i still lagging behind? i hate it..i wan that feeling back...the light weight of me when i m sprinting 4 yrs back..i know it sounds silly but to me track is all abt feelings...i feel my jumps i feel my run..i dun feel good that day everything juz cock up like they always do nowadays.. i think i m FAT...but the prob is my weight juz stay stagnant down there no matter how much i train...i feel so heavy n when i jump..my projectile motion had become linear motion...my running frequency had dropped to ??x10^-n hz.......i feel resistance of infinite newtons against me...my legs r like immersed in water when i run with resistance of F=Arnv...

enough abt physics which is the shittiest subj i m at...

next, the worst thing is i m already yr 2.....it will be my last yr representing njc n worst my last yr of nats..i had been going home with disappointment every yr..no encouragement or comfort is going to get me through now..for the 1 st yr i told myself there is always next yr..for the 2nd yr: next yr will be a better yr..for the 3rd yr: i will train harder for next yr..for the 4th yr i: maybe nxt yr i may have more chance..for the 5th yr: nxt yr come on i can do it... 6th yr: there is no more nxt yr to come...................................................................................


LOUSY POK................................turned to stone..................................................................................

after having dinner had a bath n after toking to my senior i realised i had been too negative.. i had been posting my complains n blabbering abt stuffs which makes my blog stuffy..which is BAD...i wan u all to have a nice memory of nice place..lolz..anyway i felt betta now..i feel glad that at least my coach (the other one not the mentioned above) know how i m feeling..its as if he can read everything from my face..he looked at me n tell me dun take it to heart its ok..well at that pt of time i really cried abit..haha.. but i rubbed it off quickly..n thks angela for duno how to console me but juz keep on saying jia you..yes i know i will jia you...

whee!!whhooo waaaahhhh hahahaha tml going julz hse mahjong! celebrate julz bday! wad a sudden change of mood..

anyway my feet is so stinky...so smelly eeekk..i can smell it when sitting x-legged which i m now..OMG......its super duper stinky aaaaaaahhhhhh....cant take it anymore *faints*

(edited)

had been feeling down past few weeks..the work load is getting heavier in fact too heavy for me to even breathe...SPA tests n comming common tests argh!!!! during the process i learnt that we students also possess the typical behaviour of singaporeans..kiasu...usually the stress we feel are juz something we created on our own due to our own desire and competition ard us..so i can only juz blame myself for it..

tiredness never left me..i might look hyper n high but the shadow of tiredness shows almost immediate the next moment..something unaviodable..

anyway had maths test today..haha my stomach was growling throughout the 50 mins lect test..so loud that i irritated my fren during the course of the test hahaha...sry
hmm had road run last fri..manage to excuse myself by being the timekeeper.. :p got suan by my frenz for being a slacker.. went our with track team after tat to fish n co n watched a movie pink panther..is a funny silly lame dumb bla bla bla movie..throughout the whole show i was anticipating the appearance of the pink panther..will it be in the form of an anime? or will it be someone wearing a pink panther costume over? super interested in how the movie is going to deliver this char but disappointment wash over me when the credits starts flashing after the end of the movie..no signs of pink panther nth juz a big big jewel named pink panther..n how is it going to link with the pink panther i always know..u know the PINK PANTHER!! i wan PINK PANTHER not a big pink jewel...anyway for those who r in a state of confusion now u may wan to go watch the show..haha..if u have nth betta to do n wan a laugh its quite a gd show..

last but not least..for those who r stressing out out there be clam stay cool n tc! jia you! fighting!

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HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

hope u pple out there will spend the day with ur loved ones and received lotsa choc..hee..
:D Sweet~

take care peeps!




heart of stone..nice pic i found on the net..

woo hoo..happy cny! haha though its a bit late...today is already 7th day of cny which is ren ri (human day) the birthday of everyone :)

had been down with fever these past few days..had a terrible week and lots of hw not done...was lying on the bed for the whole day..feel so sleepy n heavy... *faint*

anyway first time i went to a doc when i m sick...went to the doc when i was v v v young with my mum..ever since after tat nv went to c doc again..always manage to get well after one or two days of sleep n cups of liang teh but this time its different... because of bird flu i muz get a verification..n of coz i got my MC for the first time!! nv got mc b4 n was so excited haha.. though ms chee dun intend to collect it from me in the first place anyway but i pushed it to her with glittering eyes... "my MC...." hee...siaoz...haha

alamak had not been training for a week or so...feel so weak...sob..n guilty..hope coach wont miss me too much :p

o(X~X)o sick.........