had a terrible hols...

dint really study much..its alrdy sat..n yet i still feel so unprepared..i did alot of things which i m not suppose to during this hols..i feel so guilty..

i actually felt glad gging training during hols..its the only time i spent wisely..only time i felt that i gained something..besides that i think i m alrdy on my way to failure...sobz...

i have the intention but i lack the drive..times have changed..n i have changed too......??? its so confusing..i know what is the consequence but i dint take any action to stop it..i continue to idle n i know i will be the one crying in the end..irony.....i hope it wil never have to come

i lost my water bottle! think i either left it at the grandstand or the track near the bb court..lost it for the second time..lost it once but manage to find it after 2-3 days..it juz suddenly appear b4 my eyes n i was so happy n i knew immediately that my bottle becuz i juz knew it haha any kind soul out there hu saw a lonely bottle standing on its own with any owner plz plz pick it up n return me..its fila one btw..although its a bit old yellowish n leak sometimes but it has been with me 4 quite some time...........................
anyway it looks smth like this bit taller one bigger one..


anyway was watching tv..n i realise that in these tv shows there always exist a triangle love situation..either 2 guys 1 girl or 2 girls 1 guy..either way its always sad.. sometimes pple will ask, if u n ur fren fall in love with the same person wad will u do? most of the time the ans is they will give up..they choose frenship over love..but i dun see the pt...hu cares whether u gave up or not..if that person don't like ur fren n likes u arent u hurting him/her? well if u choose to give up becuz u know him/her like ur fren den fair enuff..i juz feel that both of u shd be continue to be frenz n let that 1 girl/guy choose who he/she like..if i m in this situation n he likes my fren den i wish them happiness but if he likes me i will b happy n i know my fren will wish me happiness too coz thats frenship..but if my fren is unhappy about it then in the first place she is not a v gd fren then...scarli both of u he/she also dunt like n both of u will start laughing how silly it is........... anyway juz a thought while watching tv coz cant stand them dragging on n on ard the same issue

was pmsing yest..n after me was angela..den juliet got pmsed by other pple...so everybody is pmsing...

sometimes when we girls pms we juz cant help it..we need an outlet to release our anger, frustration, sianzation ,pisszation bla for pms stands for Piss Madness Sian..i understand how gyus feel sometimes girls can be juz so ununderstandable..they can be nice for a while and difficult to get close to the next moment..but pls understand us n put urself into our shoes...

we know our limits too..we shouldnt go overboard juz becuz we r pmsing..but than things juz get outta control becuz we cant control our hormones secretion.. so we r also in a dilemma..when we throw our temper we feel guilty too....................

but than we cant possibly contain our anger n kept it in..its bad for the health..we might run the risk of having internal injuries of some pyschological complications..so we need an outlet..it varies from person to person..some may feel better after crying..shouting..throwing stuffs..beating someone out.. for me its exercising..although i may hate training bt i definitely feel a sense of happiness n satisfaction..at the same time i gets too tired to get angry... well others may wan to try out my method too..wad form of exercise is up to u to choose as long as its enuogh to make u feel tired....hmmmmm.........a bit misleading here

all in all...i think my period is coming :S