recently keep doing stuffs that will make myself embarrassed n stuffs that happened to me which made me reach breaking point...

1) i loss my uniform after one training n was so worried that i cried..after which somebody actually found it n returned to me..Argh.. relieved but still dont get it how my uniform go missing in the first place

2) made a fool of myself on the bus ..erm i shall not say more

3) being stranded at the back of LT 5 during maths lecture becoz i duno where my frenz r..this is real stupid man..i went to toilet n my frenz changed seats..WTH..lecture started and i dare not go looking for my frenz coz it will be so AA..den i sat alone behind without notes NTH juz stone n listen..den lecturer was walking ard the LT n saw me..she tot i was sick at first but later i told her i was lost (..') she was kind to help me to get back to my seat though but i rather she dun notice me in the first place....i was quite pissed that my frenz changed seat n how m i going to search for them in the LT by juz looking at the backs of so many NJians..wad i see is only a sea of grey n black heads bobbing up n down..while stoning i was cursing my frenz so badly inside but when i saw them i juz couldnt say anything...not entirely their fault but i still dun feel good..nearly cried..tears brimming..i felt so lost n worried n scared..well apparently they dint really spend the effort to look for me n they cant too..since lecture is on..but after the whole incident i juz felt so STUPID n SILLY...feel so DOWN DOWN DOWN...

i realise i have a v low EQ..i cant really control my emotions well n i cry alot..sometimes these incidents may look silly n insignificant but i juz couldnt take it easy like wad others did..n crying is my way of releasing my emotions..i feel good n refreshed after tat...but at the same time crying is a v extreme emotion which pple seldom display thats y whenever i cried pple ard me juz got helpless.....

still PMSing~

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hehe had mybday celebration ytd...a lot pple had wished me happy bdae..happy happy..

had bbq ytd..lucky dint rain..so scared that it will rain! den so stressed up through the week..
i wanna thk my family (esp my mum) for helping me out by cooking lotsa stuff n my frenz who turned up... i m lousy with my words so i shall put pics to elaborate more on wad happened


on our way to bbq! wad r the 2 fellows behind ? n mummy looks tired...
found a rooster in the carpark!
beautiful beach
me mummy aunt n 2 little fellows
let's dig in!

our bbq pit...supposed to b 40 but there got too many red ants.. :Syea food! my sis bfs..he he providing their service..
yea me n my frenz! thks 4 coming
martin is enjoying himself while waiting for julz to climb up haha..
sitting on the breakwaters..joanna looks like she is enjoying the wind..Zzzz n the 2 guys behind bo chap us..
haha we got our formation ok now..but sc's butt...ermmzz
yea cake time..cake from NYDC..super nice..called choc addiction..really addicted to it..yummy..but den i dun get to blow the candes off..my bro la.......sob..hope my bday wish comes true..


happy happy happy lalala

sch had restarted one week ago..it feels good to go back n meet my frenz again BUT i dun feel that i had any hols..i feel as if i m in Nj all along..all thethings r still the same..nth new except that i m j2 but keep calling myself j1 and writing the date as XX/XX/05 (..') but it had been a tiring week...lack of slp..lotz of work..boring lects..track trainings....my routine is back....AHHHH....

it has only been one week..n i dieded...so tiring..probably still not adapted but i wonder if i can last through the year..lotz of commitements that have to b made... studies cca bla bla bla... i might go crazy someday..

went sushi buffet to celebrate cindy's bday.. wah alot of pple's bday in jan...including me hehehz.. but probably like what my fren said.. ur bday is juz another ordinary day..for me its on a saturday :p

all becuz of this sushi buffet..had stitch(duno how to spell) during training..i think i m quite strong by not getting appendicitis (duno how to spell) siao liao..gp sure fail..but training definitely dint went well..first is stitch followed by leg cramp den stomach cramp ..i feel weak.. i wanna be strong...but i dun wan carrot legs~~ WAHHH...i hope that i can turn back time............
pic grabbed from cindy's blog

dieded 0(x-x)o