thank u 7 girl gang for looking after me.. thk u for gging ard to look for medication.. accompanying me etc.. i m fine now.. :)

p.s: wad's wrong with my tagboard? can anyone tell me?

all of sudden there are alot of things i want . Perhaps all these desires come hand in hand with my post A level activities. All of a sudden i wanted to buy alot of stuff but i lack the finacial ability and capability. i m still a student, studies should be my top priority but i m dying to go out to work n earn $.

my first desire came when i wanted an ipod badly. nearly got myself an ipod nano but later gave up on the idea as my sis suddenly relent and lended me hers. now i want to buy a digi cam. partly for my online business and also for my personal use. tot of buying a second hand one but i dun like 2nd hand. juz dun trust them. but if i wan first hand, at least 500 bucks for a gd one. that will cause a big burn in my wallet. den i wan to straighten my hair, i wan change new specs. etc etc and the list goes on.

i confirm plus chop chop i m not the only one like dat. but what makes the difference b/w me and the rest is tat i never asked my parents for money for the things i want. if i want it badly, i will get it thru my own way, the proper way. i duno whether is this good or bad, coz as time goes by my parents soon take it for granted that my allowance encompasses everything i need in life including the money for a simple hair cut and buying my necessities. no additional money for prom or prom dress. own expenses have to be from my own for my trip to OB korea at the end of the yr.i wonder how m i going to settle that myself.that is so unfair. but thats how my family works i guess. my sisters had been thru it.

i know that all these are juz material luxuries which are tempting me in this 21st century. i can make do w/o them n will try v hard to do so.

woohoo..my last update was a month ago..wahhaaa...

well juz dropping by to scribble smth..

anyway i had been thinking a lot recently..probably i think too much..but i realise at this pt in time..everybody seems to know where they are going what they want n what they need in their future..on the other hand i m still walking around in circles on the spot..completely clueless of where i wanna go.. i feel so lost...

its easy to think of a bright and wonderful future..but that is juz an idealistic perception..in reality things are not easy..we face many restrictions and things always turn out the other way.. i always tot that i m prepared for the worst, but when the worst really happened its hard not to feel disappointed and sad..

i was studying for my prelims a month ago..and now i have to preapre for my A levels next month..poof........ gimme a break................................................................................