Sunday, February 26, 2006
WoRk WoRk n MORE WORK!
i've been struggling with my work n now my mum is bothering me with housework..wth
i think a lot of u wil hav the same exp as me..its sunday n u juz feel like slacking ard..sitting down to watch tv even if the show is terrible or juz lie on the bed even if u dun feel sleepy..but Mums juz cant stand the sight of u slacking..she juz keep on blabbering abt the loads of housework supposed to be done n even made a list of "what to do" 4 u that day..well even when i m studying she will juz call upon me to help her n yet she expect me to do well in sch..
REDICULOUSevery morning i wake up n she starts listing them for me not once not twice but n times..ting ah vacuum the floor..ting ah keep ur bed..ting ah help me mop floor today the floor is so sticky..ting ah help me keep clothes..ting ah help me fold clothes..ting ah ting ah ting ah...................................
i m so scared of hearing my name now..
i m gging crazy!
i self proclaim that i had always been a v gd nice filial girl..most of the time i help her whenever i could..but sometimes when i m too tired i will juz excuse myself from all these extra work..today i tried excusing myself too from folding the pile of clothes because firstly, i m lousy at it..n whenever i fold a piece of clothing she will pick up tat same clothing n fold again so might as well let her fold all lo y go through the trouble of folding it twice 2ndly, both my sis r also at home why cant she ask them to do it 3rdly, i prmoise her i will vacuum the floor later..but she juz buay song n keep scolding n cursing us..n i m deeply hurt by that..stop calling me names MUM! i m ur daughter n i dun treat u like my maid okay..if u wanna be one i wont stop u but first of all maids dun complain n they nv ask their master to do hsework
i went to my room but the more i tot abt it the more angry i get..so eventually i went out n reason with her..but i realise its a big mistake..no pt reasoning with a person who is unreasonable............................. (..') well i personally feel that it a natural thing for mothers to do hsework although nobody or even god has set tat mindset but i believe every mum do housework..well at least some mum went out to work so as their child i think its reasonable for us to help them esp when they r so tired after work..BUT my mum is a HOUSEwife..arent she suppose to do HOUSEwork since she is staying at home most of the time? somemore she got the time in the whole world to do them so i c no pt in y she needs help..n the most terrible thing is she dun cook everyday..she dun cook on weekends she dun cook on some weekdays too like thurs or fri..maybe the most tiring thing is wasing clothes? but we got a huge washing machine n she could juz dump everything in..wel but some clothes have to be handwashed..n looking after my bro could be tiring too but most of the time she juz dun bother abt him unless my bro bothers her..besides that i cant think of anything which could make her tired
i know i shouldnt compare my mum with other mums..but its hard not to compare..sometimes i feel that she is not a responsible mum..ever since we r young she nv bring me to sch(except 4 nurery n k1 k2) she nv make lunch boxes..she nv make breakfast..she nv teach me homework..she nv pack my bag with me..she nv fetch me from sch..she nv ask me hows sch..she nv support me in competition b4...she nv c me compete b4..she nv say jia you to me when i gging to compete..she nv wakes me up for sch..n she nv did alot of things which other mtohers do
i think she is v v fortunate to have 3 daughters like us..we r so independent..we nv do stuff which worries her..we dint go astray..our academic is okay even though she dint contribute much besdies paying 4 the fees..we r understanding..most improtantly we love her..but she dun appreciate but take it 4 granted.
i shall be nice n forgive her since she is not educated n her childhood is filled with housework too..my grandmother was v strict with her when she is young..she dun have the chance to go to sch..among her siblings my mum is the first to come to society to work at the age of 16..she travels from malaysia to singapore to work all on her own n finally married my dad at the age of 19/20..however i dun agree that she should impose her mum's methodology(got such word?) on us..we r of totally different generation..i cant accept it n i tink its v wrong
however as i write this post my anger had alrdy dissipitated into nothingness..i tink i shall juz accept it n manage my time well b/w my sch work, track n last but not least the tons of housework which is so impt to my mum