recently keep doing stuffs that will make myself embarrassed n stuffs that happened to me which made me reach breaking point...

1) i loss my uniform after one training n was so worried that i cried..after which somebody actually found it n returned to me..Argh.. relieved but still dont get it how my uniform go missing in the first place

2) made a fool of myself on the bus ..erm i shall not say more

3) being stranded at the back of LT 5 during maths lecture becoz i duno where my frenz r..this is real stupid man..i went to toilet n my frenz changed seats..WTH..lecture started and i dare not go looking for my frenz coz it will be so AA..den i sat alone behind without notes NTH juz stone n listen..den lecturer was walking ard the LT n saw me..she tot i was sick at first but later i told her i was lost (..') she was kind to help me to get back to my seat though but i rather she dun notice me in the first place....i was quite pissed that my frenz changed seat n how m i going to search for them in the LT by juz looking at the backs of so many NJians..wad i see is only a sea of grey n black heads bobbing up n down..while stoning i was cursing my frenz so badly inside but when i saw them i juz couldnt say anything...not entirely their fault but i still dun feel good..nearly cried..tears brimming..i felt so lost n worried n scared..well apparently they dint really spend the effort to look for me n they cant too..since lecture is on..but after the whole incident i juz felt so STUPID n SILLY...feel so DOWN DOWN DOWN...

i realise i have a v low EQ..i cant really control my emotions well n i cry alot..sometimes these incidents may look silly n insignificant but i juz couldnt take it easy like wad others did..n crying is my way of releasing my emotions..i feel good n refreshed after tat...but at the same time crying is a v extreme emotion which pple seldom display thats y whenever i cried pple ard me juz got helpless.....

still PMSing~

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